So I must say that I hate watching sytycd simply because every time I do I miss dancing so much. I get all these crazy ideas but I can't really do them cause I don't have access to a studio and no real reason to do it. I don't take a class and I'm not in any shows. This really sucks.

I finished a book today. It was 740+ pages. What made it cool was not only was it a good book but I bought it Saturday. I never finished a book that long in such a short time. I feel pretty cool about it. I know it's not that big of a deal to some people but it is to me.
I hung out with Shannon today too. It was pretty cool, but hopefully she'll come tomorrow when Russell gets here so we can all hang out.
The kitten's are walking a lot, so much so that there not staying in the room where they were born in anymore. I have to find a bigger spot to keep them in. I want to try my room but there are so many hiding spots for them and I don't know if it's a good idea.

o.k. I come up with this theory today and it may be a bunch of bs but I still want to share in the hopes that I'm a good friend and good friend share things.
For awhile now I've been dreaming a lot. To be honest I have a nightmare every night and I still have the habit of waking every few hours due to my nightmares. anyway I had this theory on why I've been having dreams so much. Lately I've been reading a lot more than usual. I used to read but not as much as I read now. I mean I bought a new book on saturday and I'm already on page 363, which I find impressive because I used to be such a slow reader. anyway I read in an article which makes sense to me that the reason reading is better than tv or video games is because it forces the brain to think more and use their imagination more, which has been said for many years now, so that doesn't surprise me. So I was thinking that maybe since my brain had been working so much more than usual and my synapses is firing off more that maybe that's the reason for having these dreams lately. I'm not trying to complain, but my life has been so boring for lack of friends and events that this is something i wanted to talk about or share.
also the kittens are getting fatter and they are becoming more accepting of me so now I can play with them a little and the mama cat doesnt mind at all unless she wants attention then she'll get in the way. lol. I'll try to have pics on facebook soon. til next time take care of yourself and have a happy holiday.
god bless

So on Thursday in my lass we were doing an exercise to help write us poetry. Pretty much it was fill in the blank "I don't believe in" and I was just fooling around, but my teacher said that what I wrote was really good and I should continue it and submit it to the school magazine. It felt so cool to get a compliment like that. I've been wanting that to happen for a long time now so I'm excited about it. I would write it but I think I would rather sent copy of the magazine if I'm lucky enough and get it in.

so now the kittens are more active I've chosen names for them. Since one of them is a black and white tuxedo colored male cat I decided to name him James Bond. The other has a white spot on his chest so I was thinking either star, or white dwarf. I thought it was cute. But more than likely their names will change soon at least one of them will. the other I don't know if Gen is or isn't taking him but I'll keep him just in case.

I went down to check on the kittens and they weren't in the basket where i had them. My cat too them out and put them in a corner under a cabinet. I don't now if I should be worried about that, but the kittens are walking better and exploring the small room they're in. I hope my cat isn't ignoring them too much. I now she's suppose to wring them off her milk to food which I'm going to put in a couple of days. All the articles online I read said I should put out dry food mixed with water so it's soft around week 3 which is this week. I actually recorded them walking around if you wanted me to txt you it. It's pretty cute.

I'm tired.

I don't know if the new kittens are becoming a sore subject, but it's sort of the only thing I have that's good going on in my life now, and I don't want to be a sour pus. So the kittens are growing and have their eyes open. They're moving a little more but their not strong enough to walk a lot on their own. They're spending a lot time awake too. Pepper, my cat, is doing well too. She's seems a lot more friendlier too. I mean she's not running around and trying to sneak out, but is allowing people to pet her more. She's calm down a lot. I do miss sleeping on my bed with me though. She's with the kittens in the basement which is good, but I miss her sleeping on the pillow next to mine. Well I haven't named them. I feel like since other people are going to take care of them it's not my right to name them like that. I have pics on my phone but I'm not sure if I'm going to get charge cause I took out the internet on my phone but if u want to see them just text me.

Fuck, it looks like she rejected her first kitten.

my cat is in labor as we speak, but thee might be a small problem. She already had her first one a very pretty black and white one, but she's not on her mother's nipples eating. I'm not sure if my cat's going to get her/him when she has all the litter or is she not acknowledging it as her child. I don't want to interfere too much right now, but I don't want to that kitten to die. I'm calling the vet later when they open. I hope the kitty will be ok.

Pepper hasn't eaten much today nor has she taken a poop. Is that a bad thing considering she's still pregnant? I'm a little nervous. If she's not better tomorrow I'll take her to the vet.

So I'm flicking through the channels cause I have a pathetic life where I happen to come upon Naruto: Shippuden on the Disney xd channel, and what's funny is the announcer says Shippuden like she pooped.

I had this idea for a story about a doctor. I have a question about it. I was wondering if a doctor had a child and started seeing symptoms of something serious, will he look into it or will he ignore him because it was his child? I can see both sides and i don't know which side to use.

Has the last person you kissed ever took their shirt off in front of you?
yeah

Who were you with Friday?
Alex, Kenny, and the rest of the family. I think Tracey was there too

If the last person you kissed, saw you kissing someone else, would they be upset?
I don't know, but I would guess that she would care.

Are you missing someone?
Yeah

Do you believe your ex cares about you?
sometimes

Did you have a dream last night?
idr

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Jeans

Do you want to say something to someone?
maybe?

Anybody you're looking forward to seeing soon?
not really.

Who was the last person you were under a blanket with?
pepper my cat. Gio my nephew

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
kids books

Could you forgive an ex for cheating?
depends

Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
i guess. I've been single of 2 years now and I haven't kissed anyone

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
my cousin Rafy

Plans for tomorrow?
class, bank, work, wii fit, and finish paper

One thing you want right now?
a cuddle would be nice

Are you going to answer this honestly?
I have been

What do you want to be when your older?
maybe a writer doing odd jobs

Do you know where your bestfriend lives?
Yes

Favorite color?
green

Something you're proud of right now?
idk..

Do you believe best friends can get together?
idk

What was the first thing you did this morning?
use the bathroom

Who was the first person you saw this morning?
my dad

Was yesterday fun?
it was ok

Who was the last person you texted?
malcolm

If your boyfriend/girlfriend started smoking would you care?
prolly not

Can you sing?
no.. rock band agrees

Can you play any musical instruments?
harmonica

Exactly what will you be doing next Friday night?
hopefully seeing Where the wild things are

How many scars do you have?
a lot. I don't feel like counting

Will you be drunk in the next 24 hours?
No

What are you listening to?
the tv

Do you want anyone to die?
no

What are you looking at?
this screen

What color is your bedroom door?
white

Did you resolve your last big fight?
idr

What were you doing at 7:00 this morning?
on the bus

What are your initials?
ZAA

Have you ever been out past your curfew?
I dont have one

Have you held hands with anyone today?
No

How many kids do you want to have?
Just 1 would be nice but I can't read the future

What are you looking forward to in the next 4 months?
any break I could get, and maybe paying my PS3

Do you call it sitting "criss-cross" or " Indian-style"?
criss cross apple sauce

Do you usually apologize first?
yeah i do

Do you have a pair of shoes?
more than 1

Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
back

How many pillows are on your bed?
to be honest... like 7

When's the last time you said you were okay, but really weren't?
yesterday

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
probably

Are you in a good mood right now?
not really

Is there someone who has made a difference in your life?
yeah

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
yeah

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes I have

Have you hugged someone within the last week?
not really

Do you drop your phone a lot?
yes

And it was posted recently so I'm not being late and feeling awkward bringing it up.

http://www.comicsalliance.com/2009/10/05/super-social-networking-comic-book-character-facebook-status-u/

I've noticed that when people play wii fit they choose the opposite gender to be their trainer.

Also does anyone know anyone interested in a kitten? If You know someone can you please tell me. The kitten will be able to go out at the latest by New Years. I just want to start making contacts now so it could run as smoothly as possible. Sorry to bother you or waste your time.

41 facts, 21 secrets.

Today;

1. Talk to a boy/girl you like?
no

2. Learn anything new?
a lot actually

3. Talk to an ex?
no

4. Miss someone?
Ya :(


Last Person Who;

5. Was in your bed?
no one

6. Made you cry?
idr

7. You went to the movies with?
Alex

8. Went to the mall with you?
Alex

9. You showered with?
no one

10. Who made you laugh?
Alex

11. Said they loved you?
my mom, but I don't count that so no one

General stuff;

16. Favorite location?
Idk

18. What are you most scared of this second?
somebody coming in and shooting the place up

19. Where do you want to get married?
At first I would be like Las Vegas with an Elvis Impersonator but i don't think the person I'm with would appreciate it

20. Does anyone like you?
no

22. Do you like being around people?
sometimes

23. Have you ever cried?
yeah especially when i was a baby

24. Are you lonely right now?
U have no idea

25. Song thats stuck in your head right now?
nothing now

26. Been on radio/TV?
Im actually on the local channel for dancing in dance concert

28. Ever dated someone who treated you like crap?
no idts

29. What color shirt do you have on now?
gray

30. Favourite jeans?
Idk

31. Name five things that you do every day?
Walk
ride the bus
class
read
sleep

32. How much cash do you have on you right now?
about 190ish

33. Are you bored?
yeah

35. Who got you to join Myspace?
Janine

37. Wish someone was next to you this morning when you woke up?
yes

39. Do you have plants in your room?
No

40. Who was the last person to hug you?
Gio

41. Who was the last person you saw?
Alex

21 SECRETS ;

1. WHAT IS YOUR DISPLAY NAME ABOUT?
Its My Name on myspace and fb. On lj I wanted to be like gray fox from mgs so i sort of changed it. on xanga it's a character from a book

2. WHERE WAS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE TAKEN?
on fb its around brockport campus and lj its from the internet

4. HONESTLY, IF SOMEONE WERE TO TELL YOU HOW THEY FELT, WOULD YOU LISTEN?
I always listen

5.WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD?
bored and lonely

6. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, AND CHANGE SOMETHING WOULD YOU?
Ya

7. THE NAME OF THE BOY YOU LOVE?
Ummmm. im a dude

8. EVER THINK SOMEONE WAS "THE ONE"
Ya

9. EVER PEED LAUGHING?
No

10. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE?
Ya

11. WHAT'S THE NAME OF THE SONG THAT'S STUCK IN YOUR HEAD?
Nothing

12. WHO HAS THE MOST AMAZING VOICE.
idk

13. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A LARGE AUDIENCE?
No

14. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
the face and hair

15. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY ORDER FROM STARBUCKS?
Idk

16. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDY MOVIES OR TV SHOWS?
ya

17. DO YOU HAVE BRACES ?
no but i might be getting some soon

19. DO YOU SPEAK ANY OTHER LANGUAGE?
a little

20. IS THERE SOMEONE/SOMETHING ON YOUR MIND NOW?
Ya

21. WHAT HURTS YOU AT THE MOMENT?
My back

My cat is pregnant and it's my own fault. I should of tried harder to get the paper work so I can get her spayed for 40 bucks but I left it to my mom and she likes to wait so long that now it's too late. I also should of put up those signs around the house, to tell people to be careful opening the doors so the cat won't get out. So according to my research she is about 2 to 4 weeks pregnant. I can feel the golf ball size kitties in her tummy and her nipples are very big and pink. She was affectionate a couple of weeks ago but I think she might start heading into the sleeping a lot phase. It takes 9 for a kitten to be born and I have some work I need to do. I want to get a bigger litter box for her and a really big box, for when she starts nesting she has someplace comfortable to give birth. I'm taking her to the vet sometime next week so we can get an ultra sound. I hope that when the kittens are born and their healthy I can give them away when their not dependent on pepper any more. So if you know some one willing to buy a 2 to 3 month year old kitten please let me know. I feel bad about it but I'm also a little excited because I get to take cute photos when their born and tiny kitty photos are the best.
I love my cat. She's sleeping on my chest right now, and it's the first time I felt loved in a long time. It's a good feeling.



ps Russell is coming down this weekend and it's going to be awesome. and Janine we need to talk about the arrangement of the wrestling because u might have to sleep over that night cause there is no bus going back to bport that late at night.

I just had an interesting morning. Think Sam, my sister's ex and her baby's father, and Peter, the boy my sister is "talking to", and them talking alone. Yeah it was pretty bad.

I know this is going to sound really dumb, and out of character. I looked in the mirror yesterday and felt so bad. I've gained so much weight and it kind of stinks. I know I'm not as big as other people but I felt good about my six pack and now it's gone. So to remedy that I started to play wii fit and I feel a little worst. I mean I struggled so much just to get through Yoga. I mean I couldn't even touch my toes. I need to get back in shape, maybe malcolm will work out with me. It even said that my bmi was overweight. I'm sad.